Nov 28, 2009 Posted by admin

Friday the 13th The Meltdown

It is the next day after the “talk” with my wife. She refused to sleep in the same bed with me, so I woke alone. I got up, showered and headed out the door for work. As I am leaving I try to say goodbye to my wife, but then it started to come out. The previous night’s conversation came rushing back to me and my emotions took over. I started to cry and it would not stop. Now, I never cry.... read more

Nov 28, 2009 Posted by admin

The Thief

I am the thief that stole your sunshine You were the only light I ever needed Your radiant power is immense It is revealed in your eyes, your smile, your heart As a thief I took without asking I stole what was yours to make it my own What I took filled my heart, filled my soul But it was never truly mine to take, it did not belong to me Now the sun is no longer shining I must search for my soul in the... read more

Nov 25, 2009 Posted by admin

My World is Starting to Crumble

My world consisted of my business. I was so totally consumed by it, as if nothing else existed around me. Completely shut-off from the world, my wife became very unhappy. Now my wife is not needy. In fact, she is very much the opposite, she is very giving. With me consumed with running my business, she was the one putting forth all the effort in the marriage. She is the one that would take me places, get... read more

Nov 22, 2009 Posted by admin

How did I get here?

I guess this has been a long time coming. This beast that has been building inside me, for only God knows how long, has been unleashed. The beast is made up of all my deepest fears, insecurities, guilt and worry. It controlled me. Guarding my heart not allowing me to feel or be close to anyone … especially the ones I love the most. Relentless anxiety was chewing away at my soul feeding the beast... read more